I've been living in an abusive household since I was a child. The abuse is of an extreme nature that has led me to develop several mental health issues that prevent me from getting better and eventually getting out.

Both of my parents were abusing substances during my childhood, because of which my mom has even become partially disabled. My father is still a drug addict and has only gotten worse, becoming completely mentally unstable, violent, and unpredictable.

Throughout my life, my father has made me go through sexual, physical, and mental abuse of the worst kind. He has subjected me to public beatings and multiple stabbing attempts (one almost successful just a few months back). He is extremely violent and sleeps with a huge knife under his pillow to instill fear in me and my family.

I have tried all possible ways to get rid of him or get help from the police and women's helpline, but they denied any help because I didn't have any proof of grievous injuries. So, the only option I was left with was to start earning and get out of the house.

Due to the abuse, I had to give up on my education after 12th grade and get a job as a customer service representative. Because of my inexperience and lower qualifications, they hired me on a contractual basis for 6 months. I moved out of the house after a while, but my mother endured the same violence and abuse every day and pleaded with me to take her out as well but due to financial constraints I was unable to do so.

Even though I was out of the house, all this stress took a mental toll on me. I was working for 9 hours at night, which left me sleep-deprived, tired, and mentally drained. The contract ended, and I had to get another job that paid less and made me work even harder. It wasn't a permanent role either. After two months of working there, they fired me because of my deteriorating mental health, BPD, and anxiety issues. All this resulted in me going back to the same abusive house under the same conditions and leaving my home.

I had no other option but to go on in these conditions without any emotional or financial support from anyone. I live in severe depression. Sometimes, my mental health got so bad that I started self-harming and attempted suicide multiple times.

Pro bono and online therapy didn't help me. I tried getting some experienced and walk-in therapy sessions, but they were very expensive.

My living conditions are almost impossible to live in. Four of us live in a single room, with a dog and two of my cats that I adopted while I was living alone. The cats are all the family I have, but I'm willing to give them up to get a better life for myself and for them. 

After realizing that I don't have many options to break free from this torturous reality and have a chance to live a better life, I have decided to start this fundraiser that would help me get three years of education. I've included some amount for expenses for a few months, including basic necessities like food, rent, and medicines and therapy.

I'm also looking for any work-from-home opportunities that will provide me with savings for my education and expenses. I can work until my regular college starts. Please let me know if you have any leads.

I am willing to provide any additional documents and authentication of my conditions regarding to whoever is seeking.