I'm Ruhi (xe/xem), a Non Binary and I'm suffering from Depression, Bipolar Disorder, Psychosis, Insomnia, and severe anxiety disorder. I am on medications for a long time.
I face constant humiliation and torture at home. I am provoked to commit suicide, threatened to be admitted to a mental asylum or to be handed over to the police. Somehow, I control myself.
I am not given my medicines and food at home, called by humiliating names and what not. There are bruises and scratches all over my body. They have stopped supporting me in every sense.
Also, my parents came to know about my sexuality recently and they couldn't take it that their child is queer. They are threatening me of a conversion therapy and if I run away, they, with the help of police and legal teams, can search me. If the fundraiser isn't completed I'll have to submit it to my parents and go to their Psychiatrist, and I'll be forced to eat medicines for conversation therapy. Also they believe that beating me up will make me realise that I'm not queer. The other thing they said is that everyone from LGBTQI+ is mental ill and needs a Psychiatrist.
I'm not employed at the moment because of depression which doesn't even allow me to do basic things like getting up, brushing my teeth or having a bath. I'm finding it really difficult to survive without basic needs like food and medicines. I took a very small amount of debts from friends and I can't even think to repay as I'm barely able to survive.
I am out of my medicines and this is causing my mental health to deteriorate and I'm not even left with money to even consult a Psychiatrist, let aside the treatment of the physical injuries (multiple fractures and ligament injuries due to falling from height)
After multiple attempts to end myself and failing, the only option I was left with is to ask for help. This is the last hope and I don't know what else to do.
Please help me survive and save me
Every contribution matters and will help me deal with mental health issues and queerphobia/transphobia
Thanks in advance