I am a science student. A woman born in a ‘male’ body. I identified myself as a woman at a very young age (~7yrs), and as I grew older, I got sure of my identity. I found out about transitioning when I was in the 8th grade. I started expressing my female identity publicly — overcoming huge clashes with family and society — and started openly living as a woman from mid-2016. In 2018 I started HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy) independently, with the help of the scholarship I received for my studies.
It has been two years since then and I am trying to accumulate money for my SRS (Sex-Replacement Surgery), and fighting my dysphoria. My family is already financially struggling. As my father retired 5 years ago, my mother is a home-maker, and my brother is a student, I am the only person who can financially support my family. It is already very difficult to live in the big city on a small scholarship and on top of this, I have to help out my family because of which I’ve been unable to save any money for my SRS. For the past four to five months my dysphoria is getting worse and is going beyond my limit of tolerance.
I hope you can imagine how it feels when a person starts living as a woman in society but is still haunted by that one male part that continuously kills her inside, leading to such great dysphoria. It has been sucking my blood each and every day since my childhood, and now my situation is do or die. After much effort, trying to save for 2 years. I finally realised that due to my family’s financial condition, it is not going to happen. As a student, I cannot even take out a personal loan. So, getting funding for my SRS is the only option I have left to start my new life, rather than ending my life here. That’s my only hope now.