Every time our 2-year-old son Hariamsh visits her, he refuses to leave
While I desperately tried to convince myself that this could be an infection, I knew something was not right. Yet, I felt completely unprepared. I remember that whole long day awaiting the test reports, both of us were shell-shocked. When doctors told me that my wife had cancer I felt completely numb, I still feel the same after two and a half years.
Every day is a battle for us and the last 15 days, Latha has been in the hospital. It has been two long years since we are living in this painful world. I like to fight for her but I really don't know what I could do to help her except to be her side all the time. No matter what I do, I have come to feel that I have failed in some way. When Latha breaks into tears thinking of our children, when she cries out in pain, I feel I have failed in protecting her.
Our family outing on one of Latha's better days
My son was only 3-months old when she was diagnosed. The first thing she said was regret that our baby may never know her. She feared our children growing up motherless. Our 10-year-old son Sunder would remember her, but would she fail to see our baby grow? In the last two years, spending time with him has been a bright spot in her life.
Latha's brother (in the photograph) is a perfect match - all we need is funds for the surgery
Hariamsh is at a relative's house now. I have told him that Mummy has a stomach pain and she will be back home soon. I take him to the hospital, he clings to her and refuses to leave. He begs that we let him stay in the hospital too. I thought Sundar was stronger but his friend's parents tell me that he is very upset and he is scared of losing his mother. That broke my heart - but what is even more painful is that even now, I am unable to talk to him and comfort him. I will not be able to go on if I start talking. I only tell him that mother is sick and that they need to make sure they don't disturb her.
As our life became complicated our focus became simple - to survive, rest everything didn't matter to us. I'm doing all that is possible to help her fight this painful battle. I take her 3-4 times to hospital every month for blood transfusions. I follow all the instructions given by doctor religiously. I did not move from her side in these two years.
A week ago, she became very weak and started bleeding from her nose. I rushed her to hospital. Doctors said the only cure is stem-cell transplant and she needs it at the earliest. The doctor did not even give us a time limit - he would only say immediately. Fortunately, her brother is a matching donor.
I was begging doctors to save my wife at any cost, now there is hope. It is my turn to help her but I'm helpless. I have no strength to even look at her and my children. Their eyes are filled with pain. My children need her, I can't imagine losing her. It is the love for the children that made her cope up with this pain for two years, she deserves a life and my children surely don't deserve to have their mother taken away from them.
How can you helpI worked as a car salesman and I have absolutely no income now because most of my time is spent in the hospital with Latha. I have left no stone unturned in arranging money for her treatment. I need help to save her life. Doctors say that she has a good chance of recovery. The treatment costs around Rs 20 lakhs which is beyond my means. I need your support to save her life.
Your contribution can give her a chance to live.