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I Want To Live The Rest Of My Life With My Husband, Help Me Save Him
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    Mithali
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    This fundraiser will benefit

    Saravanan

    from Bangalore, Karnataka

Tax benefits for INR donations will be issued by HCG Foundation

10 years ago, I met the love of my life. He is an easy man to fall in love with. By the end of the dinner, I knew I wanted to marry him. I have heard that best people in this world are the one who loves to eat and I just saw that! He had such a grace and discipline. He spoke very less, yet had the most amazing way to describe everything.
 
8 months ago, my world as I knew it ended. My husband, the father of my two sons, was diagnosed with brain tumor. I got shell-shocked. I was 9 months pregnant then. I don't know if I should think about the arrival of our baby or about the possibility of losing my entire world. All these things were happening at once. It was tough, physically and emotionally.

It seems like these 10 years were just swept away in a minute. He had difficulty in swallowing food, and slowly he couldn't speak. I can feed him only through the tubes inserted in his stomach and there is a tube in his throat which collects the excess mucus otherwise settling in the windpipe. If he needs to say anything, I have to remove the tube in his throat and put it back.

The tumor is in his brain has now come to 2.2 from 4.6 but it is still a long journey to go. He is longing to eat good food. I don't eat anything in his presence. I don't even cook anything that has a good aroma. How can I even eat when all he can have is 200ml of liquid for every 2 hours?

My family members don't understand what he speaks. Even my 8-year-old son doesn't talk to him because he is scared of him. He doesn't understand why he has all the tubes around him and why he struggles to talk. My 8-month old child is at my parent's house. My husband was in the ICU when he was born. He saw him only after 30 days of his birth.

I understand him without the need for him to talk. His eyes speak. Did I say that he is incredibly handsome? I realize it now when I look into his eyes, how much I miss the tenderness and love that used to be there. Now all I can see is tears, pain, and fear.

My husband had never thought of what the future held in store for him. He lived so gracefully every minute. Now I realize why he paid attention to every small thing in life, why he believed in living the moment. Now I realize all those seemingly small moments are really not so small.

He has started to believe that his journey is nearing its end but I can't imagine that. I want to live with him all those moments again. My children shouldn't miss the best father in this world. That would be the most terrible thing to happen.

I have nothing left with me to save his life but my hope and love for him!

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